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{February 2, 2010}   …marriage…

THOUGH NOT MY STORY:

hi!!  its me…….., you don’t know me but i know U. Please i need to clearify you before you marry her. We love each other though we are inter-cast, the reason her parents not to approve our relationship, so i wish you can understand our condition, specially her condition under her family pressure…………….” I was just frozen don’t know how to react until the  story was complete. The story ends up leaving lots of unanswered question on my blown mind.

Mine Side : my parents set up my engagement to a girl I had never seen before despite just a photo of her. Mentally, I agreed the time I saw her photo, y shouldn’t I since my parents were happy as much as excited I was about my marriage.  I had just met her once and our engagement was done until waiting for the marriage date now.

Being loyal and talking to her was my first mistake to trust her for whatever she had told me that day and so easily accepted my proposal to marry me. I had told her abt my whole life and in return she was clear too abt her past relationship with anyone. I told her i wouldn’t have any problem if she had any ‘past relationship’ with someone else since it’s better to quarrel at the moment then to fight later on ruining both of the life after marriage. I was happy when she accepted to marry saying she didn’t had ‘had affair’ with anyone till now.

Things were literally going on. We used to frequently talk on phone and even chat online whenever I was in office… But this shocking moment that truly happens to be now is eating me from inside, y did she lie to me even after i asked her and so like i trusted her words and made big big stories about our future…

I was very angry &  embrassed, since I had already distributed the invitation cards amongst my colleagues, friends and most of all.

It did not take much time for me to come to terms with the situation as I am believer in God and destiny. Had this incident taken place after my marriage, what would have been the trauma that I would have undergone? I even curse myslf sometime for whatever happened without knowing everything but whom would I blame since it was my finally my decision(had none to blame). But what if she was pressurized from her family to marry me which i was unaware of. It was my foolishness atleast i should have seen through her eyes while she was briefing me abt herslf the first time I meet her. I was unaware of the situation at the moment & rather being myslf happy not even knowing the pain within her. Well what now, whom should I curse after I come through the truth??? ME…HER…FORTUNE…GOD???

So whatever happens it ‘sometimes’ is for the best. We have heard of many couples breaking the knot after a long relationship and it is not a new thing in the world now-a-days.  It’s the hardest of all at the moment when u see your whole dream life is ruined by someone special to whom you have dedicated your whole future life. Once again to built the whole structure after once scattered is hard to rebuild. time lagcha…

To get over this  moment is the toughest of all now for me…It pinch on my heart with a great pain when someone ask me about my marriage…

It is very difficult to build a long-standing relationship, but it takes no time to break away.

The only relief is to thank god for thinking someone more special in my life….

I know you would be happy somewhere else & I wish you a very happy married life… Until you read this article i will have already gone through a long phase in my life getting over of this situation by now.



{February 8, 2008}   happening around me…

…I’m quiet surprised today that i have made my mind for writing blogs, thats happening around me. Never thought that i ‘ll do it, since i always thought to write but never started…. but this time it happened… my first ever blog…can say so inspired by someone… and infact from my inner. Actually am a very s2pid guy and always always forget, mine memory power is very very weak… i dont’ know either am doing or my writing is bad but its ok… am happy… atleast these memories are always with me…

My feelings and emotions which i hardly share or say, i find it easy to mention here…

Today when in this ever changing fast world, everyone is running to make a space for their survival I at this point of time finding myself as changed personal…. a much matured (am I really matured??) and much thinking about everything thats happening around me….. I just wanna collect all my memories with me, either bad ones or good ones… and yes finding myself this time in usual mode… rather than just wasting time in net…


I wish none has problem in adding their name with my blog here. If so…, then please do let me know & leave the comment. And m thankfull to all of you for your appropriate suggestion n comments, looking ahead for all of my experiences & mark fowarding in my life…

SKB (always blind)



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