knowing you for all these times was the happiest moment of my life. Showing me the only one side of the life filling with full of smile(s) n teaching me to learn to live life for self and even for others.
Truly, mine rough days were over ever since the time we met. I had only heard that people being with bad friends makes you bad, but its me simple example guys, m the one who’s life drastically changed ever ‘the angel’ with good intentions enter into my life. Well, specially most of the people whoever knows me now, doesn’t know me well b’coz its the only one side of me, which was totally different then few years back. I always lived with past, pain, sorrow and grief which lead my life almost to hell; thanks for the rescue.
Its time now, i guess for whatever am going to write is definitely gonna make me selfish; its true. Sometime selfishness if doing in someone’s fabour for better, is considered as good. M none to judge myself but truly to say am doing just for the benefit for both of us. Well, the time for this long being together and now suddenly m telling you that i wanna stop along the path after we walked together for this nearly one fourth part of our life. It isn’t that easy and so simple to end a relationship which carried on being so close for all these years. I won’t promise you that mine heart doesn’t cry or stop from beating with the feelings for you, but i would promise that your memories will always be with me along with me wherever i go.
Neither do i wanna blame the situation nor someone else for whatever happened so suddenly for making my mind to take such a big decision at the moment. All these time i had never been good to you, never made you feel even for a second that i liked you. The more effort i tried, i always failed in anyway and never succeed in fulfilling your wish the way you wanted to see me in. Never ever for one chance i guess in all these years made me feel that i had been upto you expectation; it never happened. I would neither deny that you aren’t the reason for whatever am standing on today. I know i can never ever thankyou with words for making me such a man which now everyone just likes me to be. I won’t say that i never fell for you, i fell many times, i was scared n m sacred of losing you in anyway so i just ignored my feelings having for you just being only a friend to you. You are my friend for always. Its not that m disappearing somewhere.
I know you need answers and asking for explanation but please just don’t give a second thought for what i am doing. I know not so simple but still sometime, someway i had to… I just wanted it to finish in a mutual understanding. Sorry for being such a ……., but i don’t want to have any further mis-understanding between us because it might guide to terrible ending… I am well aware of the loss in my life but its my final decision, might b little too personal but m stuck with my decision n its final.
…gonna be a tough time…
