…IPL match…

wow…. today, the schedule of the IPL-2 has been flashed out… i remember the day when i was so excited to watch the match live in Eden Garden Stadium… The match is still live infront of my eyes. It was really the most excitement day, still now i have the ticket of that match, many reason to remember that day, watch famous Indian & other cricket players as well a movie actor & actress from such a close view. How can i forget that day?? Well the ticket was sponsored by my office.

It was sunday, a holiday. Since morning, I was just too much excited when to reach the Eden Garden stadium n watch the match between Kolkata Night Riders & Deccan Riders. All the guys (golu, monu & their friends along with mintu bro) all were waiting for me below our office building. When I reached there it was almost 1 pm n terrible hot, I saw guys wearing the night riders t-shirt n carrying pamphlets. After all we together, we caught the metro till esplanade n then on walk to stadium. Oh god, such a crowd never had I seen. We had our tickets so not to worry, we then entered inside the stadium in that crowd, people dying to enter the stadium n support their home team, the Kolkata Night Riders. While I could hear the slogan n the theme song of Kolkata Night riders frm outside the stadium..” Karbo lodb0, jitbo re…(will play, fight n win…)” . As I entered the ground, ‘wow’ I said, since it was so big stadium, we started searching our seat, but my eyes was all around the ground n excited to see the stars n the players. Despite that terrible hot people were just jumping n shouting n singing the theme song of home team. The stadium was totally pack, not even a single seat was available as far as I could see. Our seat were on open shade, cemented seats, n almost dirty people walking over it. We then kept the run score pamphlets of ’4′ & ’6′ n sat over it. It was terrible hot n still time to start the game, so then we went beneath the shade n returned only after the game started. Until then I borrowed binocular from Golu to watch the movie stars(Shah Rukh khan along with his wife n kid), Arjun Rampal, Vivek Oberoi, Juhi Chawla n many other Bollywood stars). While I could see great n famous players like Symonds, Gibbs, McCullum n few known Indian players who were practicing on the net. Soon Shahrukh Khan, the sponsorer of the team, went on to the stage n hold the mike, but until then crowd gave a clean welcome n started singing the theme song along with him. What a close look? there was big screen behind the stage where I could watch clearly. I couldn’t express how I was feeling… I was over excited n started singing with the guys n supporting the home team. As the match was going on, slowly the lights were also glowing due to darkness, since it was a day n night match n a lot to have relief from hot. Shouting with the crowd, my vocal was almost dry, I was dying due to thirsty until I had to wait to finish one inning game to go n drink water. Thank god, the home team won the match. Despite it was nearly an escape to lose. As soon as the home team won, all the stars n players were on the ground n near to the net waving hands to the audience, this time I went close to the net n could see all the stars & players just infront to me. I was quite lucky, excited n happy to see them all. Until they made a whole circle around the ground & were not out of my sight I didn’t leave the stadium. I could see how girls were so crazy n shouting for Shahrukh Khan, y not? Even if a person like me is excited to see him then his fan might cross the limitation…

Finally it was almost dark n we were sure of not getting taxi. As soon as we came out of stadium, we drank soda water lots of glasses( i drank the most). After that we all guys were on a cool walk on the open road until we didn’t get any taxi. Everyone were almost tired due to the enthusiasm, they showed in the stadium, shouting n all n now more than a kilometer walk. Legs were almost not helping to walk but we had to, finally we got a taxi, left me till pg, I ate dinner n slept.

It was all fun, the first ever match I saw live in a stadium that also Eden Garden of Kolkata(India). Well, myslf lucky one. Hoping for once again this year.

Full of excitement n fun and obviously a great day for me in my history…

Sunday, 20th march 2008

…भावनात्मक अभिव्यक्ति…

am not so literate (साहित्यकार), writing in such an emotional way,  just as few sentence, not written by me…

लामाे समयकाे माैनता पछि अाज याे सन्ध्याकालिन समयमा तिम्राे लागि मेराे केहि भावनाहरू बहकिएछन् । शायद समयले मलार्इ यहि कुरा सिकाएकाे छ, एक्लाे जीवन । शायद तर यदि एक्लै हाे भने त किन हामीलार्इ वर्तमान समयमा कसैकाे साथकाे अपेक्षाा गर्छाै । तर प्रकृति ले हामीलार्इ यहि सन्देश दिनुहुन्छ कि जीवनकाे अस्तीत्व छ यसलार्इ बुभ्hने काेशिस गर । ( After long time of silence in evening i feel some thoughts about you. Might be the time has taught me that life has to be lived alone. But if alone then why do we expect of someone special in the present time.  But nature always makes us realize that life has its existence just try to feel it.)

here i am, what ?? dont’ think too much yaar, the above sentence has no relation with this topic… ok there i start, is that all love we should respect of, when it comes to us?? is only our happy life greater than our own parent’s feeling n thoughts that hey have towards us. Y do we always think that we are always right, not them. Y being so selfish?  We think of us forgetting that they r ones who have given us life n always tried their best to keep us safe n happy through out. But still we always forget the fact. Might b we are right? Arent’ we ?? who will judge us?? luck, destiny, god or who??? Shouldn’t we respect our parents feelings?? they have done a lot for us n now y are we being selfish n not listening to them. Can’t we satisfy them atleast providing them few moments of smile on their face. Or might b its our future life so y shouldn’t we think in our own way?

But….What if they just think for their own prestige & dignity n even ready to sacrifice their children’s life ?? I  know we have many answers n view but might b i have different from you all. I have seen love without money n even money without love. What if you have to choose inbetween LOVE & MONEY?? always a confusion!!!!! I know one who have dear ones, will always go for LOVE, n y obviously shouldn’t we go for money, hoina ra ??? Despite so many ups n downs in our life, there comes a stage where we are given an opportunity, standing on edge of life, to think once n decide the next…., d result are shown later in our own future, we got to face it, some r sweet whereas some r bitter… 

i don’t know y i started this but i had to start somewhere n somehow, sayad samay na milera hola… we got to sacrifice many things in different way in different stage of  life; childhood memories, friends, love n the most is ‘time’.  We sacrifice n sacrifice…Y are we doing all this, for whom n for what? what?? what ??? answers : Pride, Glory, Prestige, Ego, Dignity or for nature’s routine…

Well as far as i am concerned, i have sacrified all of whatever i  have, having left nothing… & still don’t know what more up to lose…

CONTD…

…valentine’s Day…

happy valentino….Wishing all those lovers who really have valentino in their life  n even those who don’t have…

People express n define love in many ways, some define as expression, attraction, sweetness, understanding, company, be-loved or many more (actually i also don’t know much)… etc etc… n today the 14th feb is celebrated all over the world as a special day to express their feelings in the most valuable n most different way then the normal days n to really mean it how much one love… ‘Love’ described in many ways by many people but  ’LOVE’ in my life is described as  ’SACRIFICE’…

its fine, with the one who really has a reason to celebrate this special occasion called ‘Valentine’s Day’, every year on 14th Feb, but how might those people feel who doesn’t have any reason to celebrate… i wish with Pathivara Mata for all those people to have a lovely partner in their life who really deserve to have.  Don’t worry for those who don’t have their dear one in their life, everyone’s day come, just have patience n watch, god has always created the special one for u, somewhere….

as usual this year also m jobless(not exactly without job) n helpless, just wasting one another valentine’s day to pass by. Nothing special since the morning, so it’s really nothing important for me. I came to office n tried to get engaged with works, might b m happy or pretending just to be happy. Y shouldn’t i b?? Everyone wants to have the love ones in their life but might b i don’t want because i don’t have any reason to fall in love with any1. Its not that i have been betrayed or m a failure but i don’t want to get emotionally attached.  I was in love with a girl in my school days time, i never could express n now she’s already married to someone else. I don’t regret for whatever happened for what  i have done or haven’t done. I was too scared, couldn’t express or  might b i wasn’t in that level to love someone. Despite of my cruelty & stony nature of staying away frm girl, again in life, i came closer to a girl,  who was polite, understood me,  might b i felt i was attracted towards for being evolved to that(love)  matter, this time might b scared of losing or might b don’t want to be emotionally attached which is beyond my limitation, as like; trying to bring down the stars to earth or touching the moon. I know my limitation so m just trying to b happy with myslf… Y m  i spoiling today’s day??? Ok sorry, no sad talk atleast for today. So ‘Cheers’ for all those lovers who r celebrating Valentine’s Day…

Yo maya bhanne chij yestai ho, kahile khusi ra kahile pidha…  bhawanatmak avibyakti matrai ho…

I stand alone…

I stand alone on this path to no where
Looking every which way for help
People see me for something i’m not
When I ask them for directions
They don’t understand
So they turn their backs and walk away
I try to teach them but they don’t understand,
So I then give up
And all hope is lost
I sit empty minded for as long as I can
And soon I can’t take it anymore
I feel as though I don’t belong to this world
And I constantly think about if dying would be best
But…..
In that very same moment I change my mind
d family n my responsibilities and held out for some moment
Telling me it cares and that i’m not alone
I stand up strongly and give it a ‘NO’
But sometime is just says ‘yes’
And then i again think
side by side,
Watching others,
Through the long path in nowhere
Until i think of finding my own destiny….

Pathivara Mata le Hami sabai ko Kalyaan Garun…. Jai Mata Di…

“kahile kahi mutu mathi dhunga rakhera pani jindagi ma hasnu parcha”

Well all i can describe LOVE as “PHASE OF LIFE”

Saturday, 14th Feb 2009

…darsan, pathivara mata…

hey mata, mero pariwar ko sadhai rakshya garnuhos… 

                    early in the morning, woke up since i had put alarm to wake up at 6 am in the morning. Took bath in cold water (terrible cold) then got ready. Took out the bike on the road, until when mom gave a plastic bag which had flowers, agarbatti, batti n abhir packet to worship. I carried my bag with laptop, camera, memory card reader n all the electronic gadgets those were needed on our way. I then started my bike n went to khusboo’s house to pick her, she was already ready n waiting  then we were on our way to pritesh home. As we reached, pritesh told that we had to pickup bikendra n dipendra. It was already 8 am until we picked up them n then had to wait for Robin since he was going with his gf. So, finally we had four bikes, me & khuboo in Honda Shine, Pritesh n Dipendra in Honda Unicorn, Dewasis & Bikendra on Honda Hunk wheareas Robin n his gf in another Honda Hunk. Our journey started. Along with this trip it was my third time to this temple. First of all with Pritesh, ananta, amit, shankar, me & dipen in Maruti Van of Hulas Saria… n second time only me & Pritesh in worldlink’s bike n now third time, we eight of us…

                          It was almost nine am, we started. We headed n stopped in place name Bhudabare, since Robin had to fillup air n dewasis had to check his bike too… then we again headed. Wow, the slope of Burnae(name of place) started n i had to gear  down my bike sometime to 2 & 3. Until we started climbing, pritesh bike started to blow black smoke n we really got scared since the bike might give problem on our way. Thank god everythg was fine. The hill side, guys started taking pics while riding n just four bikes on average speed on the deadly deadly crossing of hillside, we finally reached to the place name ‘Harkatte’. We kept our bike infront of a shop, while guys planned to drink tea, but i didn’t.  As i opened my helmet, I noticed my nose was bleeding. I just neglected it thinking due to altitude n might b cold(but suffered a lot later on). I didn’t want guys to know n suffer due to me n spoil the trip. We then took few snaps n headed climbing 1038 stairs.  I knew while climbing i would b sweated so but only the black full t-shirt n kept  jacket inside bag, Oh god, my bag was quite heavy with lots of stuff in it. Carrying the heavy bag, with one hand carrying camera n another holding nose with my hanky, fully sweated until i reached top of temple. We stopped n rested many times on our way to reach the top of temple… We then opened our shoes, kept bags, washed our hands n entered the temple to worship pathivara mata n took few snaps also. After puja, pritesh took us to a very nice place, it was like romantic place as well as like sucide point, on top, not even the body would be found if anyone jumped frm that place. So we took few pics there also and then we bought mala, parsadi, ilam hand made choclates, ate chatpate also n then we were downstairs back to hotel. Oh god, legs were trembling, not even able to stand properly, just entered the hotel n sat on the bench. Five of them ate lunch whereas, i, dewasis n pritesh ate chiura mixed with waiwai… Guys planned to go Fikkal, so we then finished eating n headed over. After we reached Fikkal, guys planned to go pashupatinagar since khusboo sis had also never been. It was quite cold n the hilly slope road, had to ride carefully the bike on 2 n 3 no gear in each n every dangerous turning point. Kasto daar lagdo ulako ra oralo, thank god, i had gone before also, so it was not a big problem for me…

                             We reached Pashupatinagar. Due to strike in india, indian shop were almost closed.  We just kept bikes n walked through the road n went for a walk n climbed few hill sides n the romantic places (where pritesh use to go for dating)… We then all snaped few pictures n then guys planned to drink n eat somethg, so Dewasis guided us to a resturant. Guys ate n drank whereas i ate waiwai n then we returned back to our home. We all were back n on the way, then found Dewasis’s bike stopped infront of a resturant at the place named “Harkatte”( I forget the exact name). Guys drank coffee whereas i n pritesh didn’t eat anythg n left to our place. While returning, it was slope so i stopped the engine n just bike was in its speed upto 70-80 km per hour going down until we stopped near the bridge where the slope finished. We all stopped at Charali n then it was almost dark until we reached Chandragadi, where pritesh met his girlfriend n gave her tika n parsadi n then we left to our home. I stopped infront of my home left the bag n gave parsadi n tika to mom n left to khusboo’s home, since her mom had invited all of us for dinner at night. After few minutes of staying there at her home, i went to Amit’s home where we all guys were suppoed to b reached n then together to attend the dinner party. Nitin, Umesh sir, Bikendra, Pritesh, Dipendra, Robin & me, we seven guys had a great night n had lot fun since aunty had prepared pakoda, salad, pickle, Masu(duck meat) with Chiura. Aunty wanted to prepare rice, but i insisted for Chiura. It was a lot fun while i was helping n irritating dokshi (khusboo’s sis) in kitchen while she was preparing dishes. She’s a nice sis, i always irritate her. It was nice candle light dinner due to loadsheding. We then all finished our dinner n left for our home. I went in bike to drop all guys to their home. But guys planned to go hospital to meet Amit Thapa’s  mom, then from there we all came back to bikendra’s home, left him there  n i returned back to my home. Almost tired due to whole day running n moreover my nose was also paining terrible. Until i reached home, parents had already slept n  i also went to my room n  soon a deep sleep…

…hey pathivara mata yesari nai hajur ko aasirbaad paudai garu ra pheri pani hajur ko charan ma pugne mauka pairakhu…

Saturday, 7th Feb 2009